as she's
shaking
she thinks of his
shoulders
where his hands used to
fit
she remembers how he felt
around and inside and around her and
his fingers
down the small of her
back
seeking her
hips to pull her to him
and kiss her
goodbye
before he left for work
she dips her finger into
his blood
tastes
it and thinks
this is the last time
she
thinks
it will ever be so
warm
and
she
moans
summoning the strength
to loosen her fingers the
gun strikes
the kitchen
linoleum
and
bounces
once
but it's useless
like telling cancer
to
GO AWAY
he
won't be going
to work today
and no one
is going to kiss her
goodbye
as
they go to work
this morning
the sun is
above the
roofs
now
as she lifts
the gun for
one more
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