and should I
out of hubris
draw or write
something
I am sure
I will find it
base and gross
and certainly
dull

but would I
could I embellish it
to make it a thing
worthwhile in my
eyes

and
scratch
scribble
erase
rewrite
add
subtract
mold
push
and
force
it

but sickened by the
madness of the once
once drab dead thing
reanimate now and
a staggering drunk
maniac
upon the page

I tear
the po
em 
I tear
the dra
wi
ng into
as many halves
of halves of
halves as the
tendons and carpals and
metacarpals will allow
then walk these to the
front porch to the
recycle bin where I
place the shreds
on top of a flyer
advertising a
56 inch plasma TV
free delivery
no credit
no money
down

I go inside and
close the door and
pick up the phone but